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2003-08-21

Kryptonite Can't Slow Him Down...


NOTHING CAN!!!
I'm talking about my man, Jesus Christ! He's the ORIGINAL Superman! (As the song says... I think it's by Pillar.)

Think about it... Jesus is a BA-ZILLION times cooler than Superman is. Yes, He's also not of this world, but when he was here on Earth he was a normal human, just like the rest of us... EXCEPT he was the FULL EMBODIMENT of GOD! (And God's son at the same time! Pretty trippy, eh?)

Jesus also performed many miracles, like turning water into wine (can Superman do that? Noooooooo!), walking on water (so Superman could do that, but he'd really be flying or floating), change the weather, and feed 5000 men with their wives and children with only 5 loaves of bread and two fishes, then wind up with baskets of left-overs!!

Some OTHER crazy-cool stuff Jesus did was CREATE THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE! Did Superman do any of that? No way! Jesus made each and everyone of us, as well as every other living thing, and every non-living thing around us! Why do you think we're so complex with all that DNA and stuff? Did that happen because of some big "BANG" out of nowhere?? I don't think so.

The coolest thing of all, is that Jesus DIED for us, to save us all. Not only did he die, but then he went to Hell, took the keys from Satan, and returned to Earth, alive and kicking! His tomb was sealed, and when they opened it three days later, it was TOTALLY empty! An angel appeared and said "He's not here". Everyone was shocked!

To prove to His friends that He was alive, Jesus Christ stayed on Earth for a while, eating breakfast on the beach with His buds, as well as showing them the wounds in His hands and side, from being nailed to that cross and then stabbed with a spear later to be sure He was dead. He also walked through walls. I'd love to be able to do something like that! That's so cool! But He wasn't a ghost. He was really alive and back! Then He ascended up to Heaven, where He's waiting for the right time to come back down here and get us!

Why is He doing all of this? Why did He die and wrestle Satan for the keys to Hell? Because He LOVES us! Immensely!!!

If we love Him back, He'll reward us by protecting us and helping us through hard times, as well as giving us authority over Satan and his demons. In Acts, just before Jesus left His friends, he told them that they'd be able to perform all the same miracles that He did, and THEN some! So if we love Him, SO CAN WE! All you have to do is ask Him into your heart, and He'll do all that for you and more. You would have Jesus Christ INSIDE of you. Not only is Jesus up in Heaven with God, but He's also INSIDE of you!!! Isn't that amazing? Doesn't that hurt your brain trying to think how in the world that's even possible?! But it is, oh it is! Because He's GOD! He's omnipotent AND omnipresent. He's AMAZING!

This is why Jesus Christ, my God, Savior, and Best Friend of All Time (oh yeah, did I mention He's eternal?) could kick Superman's butt ANYTIME. Without use of Kryptonite. Think about it... He's GOD, HELLO!!! If He made you, of course he could whoop you! But does He? No. He shows us mercy, and gave us our own free will to do whatever we want. You don't even have to believe me.

This is what makes Jesus Christ so cool, and AT LEAST a Ba-zillion times cooler than Superman.

Oh yeah, and did I mention that Jesus Christ is REAL?

^_^

Peace.

2003-07-19

She's Baaaaack!


Oh man... so much has been going on... Ever since Pam came back last Sunday night... This past week has gone by sooooooooooo slowly. Sometimes it has been enjoyably slow... Like Tuesday night... Man, that was wild!!!! Larry and Cheesely and I going to see LXG... And THEN some.. but other days... like yesterday... They have been long, and HARD. Today too. Man...

There are so many emotions rushing through my body and brain right now... I can't even totally comprehend them all. I need to write down so much stuff, but it's all so hard...

Especially now that the internet at home isn't working, ever since my parents left for their second honeymoon in Nashville, TN on Thursday morning. That's when it stopped working. And my dad's computer room where the modem is is locked. I've tried everything I know to re-gain internet access, but I can't get it. That's why I took the 15 minute walk to come to the library to check my email, just to see if my mom wrote us anything, like she said she'd be doing.

It's CRAZY!

And Pam and I aren't getting along so well at all.. and last night she had Kyle over, while were supposed to have "NO BOYS ALLOWED" while my parents are away! Even Larry! (who's totally my bro! And I went to his house to show my Animatrix DVD to him yesterday...)

So... Yeah.. total floodgate of emotions... I just hope God will help Pam and I get through this... and keep my emotions and actions and words in check.

So yeah... Crazyness abounds....

And she's back... but I don't know for how long.... *sigh*

2003-07-05

The Switch


Hey everyone.
This is something that's been laying on my heart for quite a while, now. It hasn't even been a WHOLE week, but it feels like it could have been a month or two. It's making me depressed again. It's pissing me off.

Here's the MSN conversation that explains it all. "The Switch". The switch in my life recently to cause my new depression, and the switch that God has either blessed me with, or I've been cursed with. Probably a little of both, depending on how you use it.

I'm "I'm so angry", my friend is "Ghislain WildCat". Once again, I want to thank Ghislain for hearing me out, and letting me use our conversation on this site. Thanks.

Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
You sound as if you don't feel like doing anything, is there anything going wrong?
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
When I'm going to do these things, I want to do them with my whole heart in them, and focus wholly on them...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Well,, yeah.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Last Saturday, while I was on the computer... MY SISTER MOVED OUT.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
My little sister Pam.
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
She moved out???
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
She's only 17... and she moved out.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW!
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
How come?
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I don't know. She hasn't told us yet.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I've only seen her once and talked to her on the phone since then...
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
Us? So your parents didn't know either?
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
but it seems like a whole lot more than a week.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
No, they didn't.
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
(Well, I'm kinda jealous that Martin's getting all the attention since he's going to move out soon for his studies, but at least it's not a big surprise to anyone.)
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Actually, it was around 10pm last week that my Dad and I were sitting in the living room, watching Animatrix.. (I finally watched Final Flight of the Osirus and Matriculation... I gotta say, I wasn't really impressed with either of them... more on that later...) .... and...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
My sister just UP and WENT.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
She didn't even tell us.
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
That's mean!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
When she left, my dad was at work, my mom was visiting my grandma, and I WAS ON THIS COMPUTER, CHATTING ON THIS MSN!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Anyways... We were watching Animatrix... and I was starting to wonder... "Why isn't Pam home yet?" (earlier she LIED to me that she was going to a friend's house, and she kept coming in and out... at least 4 times...)
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
ok
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
"Well, she should be home by 10:30," I thought.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Nope.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
11pm rolled around, and she still wasn't home. She hadn't even called.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Then I remembered something...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
"Wait, doesn't Pam have inventory this weekend? That must be where she is. She's working..." (Inventory jobs are often at weird hours... so then I was expecting her home around 2am...)..
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
So I guess this is why you didn't come back last week? I'm sorry if I ever wrote something that might've hurt you this week...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
That's okay, nothing hurt me.
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
ok
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And actually, why I didn't come back was because my dad FINALLY agreed to watch Animatrix with me... not because of this...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
^_^;;
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Anyways... So having said that, my family became relieved...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Until...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
My mom walked into my sister's room.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
It was wiped clean.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Oddly, abnormally clean.
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
I kinda hate it when my friends have situations like this and I just can't find something comforting to say. (First, Mélodie's bad moving, then Julie has to put her dog to sleep, now THIS! I really feel useless...)
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
So, my mom instinctually looks in Pam's dresser....
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And there's NOTHING IN IT.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Not in any drawer.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Except two, lonely pairs of socks.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
"She moved out."
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
My mom said that, in total shock and disbelief.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
"She moved out. She talked about this back during her exams with me... I thought I convinced her not to do it... but now she did anyway."
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I was like... "WHAT THE HECK!?!!!! I didn't have any idea!!!! NOTHING!!!"
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And I was in crazy shock and disbelief...
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
It's kinda mean htat she would go without even saying anything...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And so I went into a sort of denial, thinking... "She'll be back tomorrow"... and so I watched the rest of Animatrix.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Then my dad tried to go to bed...
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
Do you know what exactly caused her to do such a thing? Did something happen?
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I watched all the credits.. (they were looong!)
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
NO! I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!!!!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And this is what's so frustrating.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
AND SHE DID IT WHILE I WAS AT HOME, and I HAD NO CLUE!!!!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
What was REALLY stupid, is that earlier that day, at one point I went upstairs...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
(to go to the washroom or something...) and I walked by her room (it's on the way)...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And she was "cleaning" it.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I said to her... "WHOA, it looks like you're moving out!"
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
This is REALLY mean! She don't even realise how it torments you and your family! Someone should tell her!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And she said "No, I'm just cleaning."
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And so I walked away and said something like "Yeah, okay. Whatever." then went back downstairs.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
SO YEAH!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I feel so totally helpless and STUPID.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
She did this RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME... and I didn't even realize it.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I didn't put 2 and 2 together!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I'm such a moron!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Maybe if I did, I could have stopped her.. or at least tried to have stopped her...
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
Don't feel stupid! She's the one who did all the wrong in this!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Or yelled at her and make her see SOME sense, at least. And at least have her know how I feel!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
BUT SHE DID IT ALL IN FRONT OF ME, AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW!!!!!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
So I feel so terrible!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
But my mom knew more than I did.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And then the next morning...
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
It's her fault if she didn't give any details about it, you shouldn't blame yourself for wht she did.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Sunday morning.... My mom found "the note"...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Yes, it is. And I even told Pam that.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
When she was going to "one of her friend's houses" I asked her where she was going... and she said "Why do you care?!"
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
...I wouldn't even let my own sister answer to me like that.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And I said "Because Mom and Dad will want to know."Then she still didn't tell me. Finally she said "One of my friends in The Villages." (a neighbourhood nearby.) Then I said "Fine, if you get in trouble for this it's not my fault.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
"
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And then she left.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And then she came back in and out a few more times after that.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And right after she left like that, I complained to Holly right here on THIS MSN!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
So there was THAT, and the "Look's like you're moving out" ... and I didn't add them together...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I should have known... or at least suspected something!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
BUT NO!!!!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
So... I'm totally useless! I was so stupid.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
AND I HAVEN'T YET had a chance to YELL AT HER about this yet!!!!!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I HAVEN'T gotten to tell her about my FEELINGS!!!!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
AND I WAS SO ANGRY when I found out that night...
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
I wish I could tell her how stupid it is to do such a thing....
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
(My mom discovered an unknown phone number on our caller ID... and called it)
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
PAM WAS STAYING AT HER BOYFRIEND'S GRANDMA'S HOUSE...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
AND SO IS HER BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
GRRRRR!!!!!!!!!
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
It's just not right to make you and your family feel that way.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
At that moment I became so angry, I was thinking I was going to call the police... maybe tell them that he kidnapped her or something... or that he might rape her... I dunno! Something!!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
But I didn't...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I also wanted to confront him, YELL AT HIM... "If you do anything to my little sister... etc." and BEAT HIM UP while saying that (or after or befor? *shrugs*)...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Of course, he's only a half a year younger than me, so I don't think I would actually be able to do such a thing..... Although the adrenaline from the anger within me at that point could have helped some.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Anyways... I didn't do any of those things...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Instead, I went to my bed and prayed for over an hour, and cried a little. (I'm not really one for crying..)
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Then I went to bed and slept nicely....
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And woke up angry.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Angry at Pam for leaving, angry at myself for being stupid, and angry at Kyle for messing Pam up like this.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And just.. GRRRRR!!!!
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
Well, sometimes, you just have to let yourself cry, or else your feelings will explode at the wrong moment.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
So I drew "angry" pictures... and I went to church, and prayed with some friends, and Colleen (the pastor's wife)... and I told all my friends...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And GRR!!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
But then you know, I flipped the switch in my brain and went back to "oh, nothing's wrong, la-di-dah" mode.. and enjoyed myself.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
That's what I did on the Saturday night, when I went back to watching Animatrix.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I just seem to have this ability, to go on about my selfish way, enjoying life and forgetting about everything... Or, almost forgetting.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
That night we went to a concert...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And I was worried all day I wouldn't be able to enjoy myself, because of what happened the day/night before.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I thought I would be tormented and depressed and angry about it the whole time...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
But instead, I actually DID enjoy myself.. and there were only 2 times I stopped to think about Pam... and then, once again... I flipped the switch back to "enjoyment" and "live in the moment" mode.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Oh yeah, and Pam's note that she left?
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
Well, at some times, I guess it IS better to enjoy life than let something torment you all the time.
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
I do that a lot.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
All it said was that "I followed through with my plan and moved out." and something about "Dad needs to calm down before I talk to him." "I love you mom" and "I'll keep in contact." BUT NO EXPLANATION WHY SHE LEFT.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And It was addressed only to my mom.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
THAT was the moment at which I became angry and enraged all over again...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
It was terrible..
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
GAh!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
It was terrible...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
So... I was upset.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And then on Monday, my job started at Daycamp...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And I haven't told anyone on the staff.. Only Jill and Steve know, because they were at church when I told them the day before... and we went to the concert together... (Along with Holly and Britney, and I told them and Holly's mom and brother too...)
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And GRR!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
So.... yeah.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I just really want her back.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And actually, there IS something you can do...
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
You know, I feel kinda bad right now. I feel bad 'cuz I was chatting with you when it happen, but also 'cuz I can't help you with anything else but texts and drawings and I feel bad because of that horrible thing your sister did. It's just not right!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I'd be really thankful, if you'd pray for her.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
If you'd pray that she comes to her senses and comes back, if you'd pray that Kyle comes to know Jesus...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
If you'd pray that they don't do anything STUPIDER than living together. (IE: have sex or get married too soon)...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
If you'd pray that Pam stays safe...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And... I don't know.. other random things about the situation. Just... That the whole situation gets fixed soon, and that God has his hand in it.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I'd really, really appreciate that.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
*nods*
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
I'll pray for anything that'll make you feel better! You can count on me for that!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Thanks. *hugs*
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And also... That night, I was thinking of coming back online to RANT about it on my new blog, but my computer was off, so I didn't feel like putting it back on.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
I don't feel like a lot of things, now that she's gone.
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
it was off? the "Out to lunch" status was on 'til 4AM.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And I couldn't tell her anything.. because Monday evening, we went out to dinner, and my Grandparents didn't know.. so I had to "pretend nothing was wrong"....
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And then I was only talking to her on the phone on Thursday morning...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
And I just... I just wanted to talk to her ALONE, without either one of my parents around to listen to us...
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Because I agree with her on some things, I'm sure I do... I've been thinking about running away since I was 6 years old! But I never actually did it.
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
I know that you can't feel for a lot of things in a moment like this, but like I said, you shouldn't let it torment you forever, at least turn your brain to "let's enjoy life" once in a while and it should make you feel better. That's what I do when I think life gives me shit sometimes (sorry for the bad word).
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
So I need to talk to her, and knock some sense into her... Through a good, loud-yelling and normal talking discussion.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Yeah, I know. I know.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Anyways, the other thing I was going to ask was... do you mind if I post this discussion in my new blog?
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
(because now I've finally had a chance to type out all my feelings)
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
No problem! It's good to let your anger out when you need it!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Yeah. Okay.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Thanks.
Ghislain WildCat saw T3 ^w^ says:
Plus, I don't mind going public at all for most of the things that happens in my life. I already don't have a lot of privacy in my own home anyway!
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
Thanks a lot.
I'm so angry, it makes me want to... makes me want to... Volunteer at the soup kitchen!! says:
(heh. Alright. I'll stop it here.)


So yeah, that's it.
That's basically my last week in a nutshell.
Crazy, isn't it? Very crazy. And she was supposed to go to Youth Group last night with me... it was swimming at Larry's house... but she didn't come. She went to a movie with Kyle instead. He's corrupting her.

I was thinking about that, complaining about that to Holly when I was chatting on MSN when she was in the process of moving out. (GAH!)... Saying "I'm glad I'm not dating."
I was glad, because it seems all boys have done to her is change her... For the worse. First with Antuan, who got her to sneak out of the house at 2AM when she was only FOURTEEN, and now THIS. And because I found out about the Antuan thing and told my mom (HEY, IT WAS FRICKIN' TWO AM IN THE MORNING!!), she hasn't really been telling me anything since. I should have seen something coming... but she seemed so normal... GAH!

I feel as though it's all my fault, or at least a big part of it's my fault.

This may just drive me insane.

*tear*

Pam, I miss you.
Come back.